January 2, 2008 - I've finally got this thing up and going. Quite a feat, considering how computer illiterate I am. I have begun meditating! Yeah! I've been reading a book about a woman's spiritual journey and she writes of a Sanskrit meditation, Ham-sa. On the inhale, hahhhm and the exhale, sahhhh. Translation to english is: "I am That". Sanskrit translation of "That" is God. I do this as I am going to sleep. I know meditation is supposed to be sitting up - yadda, yadda, but I'm perfectly happy doing this under a warm electric blanket. This all brings me to the suffering mystic question. Is it a requirement to suffer? I used to think so but thank goodness I no longer believe. I do not believe we were not intended to suffer. I think the stories of the suffering mystics do us some harm. The old saying "you must pay your dues" leads us to beleive we must suffer before we are successful - hogwash! And, you don't have to give everything away after you are successful. What good would that do? One should give of self and share but not to the point of giving it all away, unless that would make someone completely happy. But to give it all away and then regret it, is not good. One should give freely but not feel required.
I still have not begun self-healing with Reiki. I am being - oh god, do I dare say "lazy"? I must admit I could be self-healing instead of writing this but perhaps this is my way of sharing. I do know I am driven to pass my spiritual lessons to anyone wanting to learn. I believe by sharing - we all have the opportunity to learn and that is why we are here - isn't it?